I have been on a low tide of late.
Little heart break. Little depression. Little Guilt. Little regret.
I take pride in being Feminist.
Of late, the feminist part of me doesn’t seem so bright.
The constant experience of being a girl in India could be a big reason. My poor choices could be another. The emerging rape culture is yet another. Being judged by other women makes me saddest (Read saddest). The downfall of modern feminism worries me. Our views have turned sexist in their undertones. But, I don’t know if that is the flaw in feminism at all. There’s so much anger, Indian Feminists tend to get sexist, also, why not? Do you see what’s happening out there? Not all men are rapists, sure. But, there is clearly an issue with some men.
I have begun to worry more and do very less. Today scares me. I am just low.
In all of this. I came across this video. It’s beautiful. Cannot thank them enough for making this, feels appropriate. No matter which country you are from, Watch this.
It’s a Bad day,
Not a Bad life.
Seven Bad days,
and still a Bad Week?
Sadness has now started to grow on me. It has been a pretty pretty low week. I am trying to hold up. I’ve learnt so much about myself in the past week, I don’t even regret it. Never knew a week could mean so much.
They say it only gets better, right?
Maybe the next week shall be better. (Fingers crossed. It better be)
‘Unaccepting’ is not a legit word, but it is the closest explanation of my existence as an entity.
Who is ‘The Unaccepting’?
Unaccepting is someone who sees what other people can’t. He looks beyond words, he belives the unbelievable, has endless faith on something that does not even exist. He fails to understand that nobility is rare, and truth rarer.
He is a criminal, hope is his crime.
Unaccepting is someone who is very low on Self-esteem. There are people out there who starve of faith and here he is overdosing on it. He believes everyone but him. He relies on everyone but him.
Unaccepting is someone who is Negligent. He neglects the fact that you don’t love him, anymore. He insists on seeing the good in you. He still wants it to work out.
Unaccepting is someone who is Damaged. He has been hurt over and over again. He still believes that there is some good left in this bad world. He still hopes that you will love him back. He hopes that he is ‘different’.
Unaccepting is someone who is Selfish. He fails to love someone who is immensely in love with him. He loves someone who shall never really be his. He loves challenge. He loves the wrong people, befriends the good.
Unaccepting is someone who is ‘Unaccepting’. He will just not accept that this is over. He will never stop believing in you, he shall still look for your silver lining. You tell him bluntly, rudely, hurtfully; but he will still not stop believing.
Unaccepting is someone. Unaccepting is me.
Please accept it. Give up.
Yours reluctantly, Future someone.